I often feel like I've never been anywhere, or done anything significant. This is especially troubling as I don't feel at all like an ordinary person. I can look back at my life and see where I've done things before everyone else caught the bandwagon, but I had moved on by then, or never got any credit for being an innovator - so I probably got mad and sulked off, grumbling under my breath. I suspect everyone knows this experience all too well and I'm way more ordinary than I'd ever care to admit. That said, I'd like to mumble on here about some things I'd like to do.
- Go to Japan. I'd like to go there and ride bikes (of course) eat delicious food, and pet weird flat face cats. I'd like to see both the large cities and the countryside. I think I'm enamored by Japan because the culture is so obviously different, but also because the things I see on the interwebz/socials coming from that country seem to fit my sense of goofy humor and general taste of things. Would you like to do a bit of Randonneuring across the Japanese countryside on a vintage steel bike with stunning chrome fenders and delightfully high argyle socks up to your knees? Abso-fuckin-lutely I do! And the cities seem to be bustling with oddities including bizarre vending machines, Blue Lug - probably the driving force behind the 26" vintage MTB craze or "cafe cruiser." Those folks just have a way of going about things that is appealing to me.
- I want to stop waiting. I seem to not do things because I don't think I'm ready... no, that's not quite it. I don't do things because I don't think I can get them come out exactly perfect... AND I'VE NEVER DONE THEM BEFORE. WTF is that?! Why?! I'm a secret perfectionist and I am - somehow - not able to just do it once with the understanding that it's required. Falling down is required to improve the quality of life. Now why can't I make myself understand this?
- That's all I can think of at the moment. I'm avoiding my schoolwork.